Hi Little Peanut..
Life is rough sometimes. I didn’t get the job back on the east coast. The first couple of days after I found out were pretty miserable but I’m feeling much better now. I just feel like I keep getting knocked over and I’m trying so hard to get my life in order. The past few months have been so depressing- losing the baby, having a hard time getting pregnant, having a hard time finding jobs on the east coast and then not getting the job.
But things can only be depressing for so long right? And I refuse to get down about it. I’ve given myself plenty of time to get all the negative feelings out and now it’s time to stand up, brush off the dirt and start moving in a more positive direction. Your Dad and I have agreed to spend more time on the weekends applying to jobs and that’s exactly what I am going to do as soon as I get done with this post. I know that the best is yet to come for your Dad and I. I’m just going to continue to be patient and wait it out.
We officially started trying again for a baby. The doctor told us that after losing a baby it’s good to wait at least 2 months to let my body heal. I needed that time to heal emotionally as well. I’ve been exercising almost every day and eating healthy too. I think I am finally ready to start trying again, I’ve been feeling good about myself lately. So here’s to round 2- I can’t wait until the day I find out you are on your way to us. My lesson for this post is to never get too down on yourself- no matter what life throws at you. Sometimes life gets complicated and hard to deal with, but with just a little bit of time and a positive attitude you can get through anything. No matter what you are going through your Dad and I will always be there to support you 🙂