“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched.  They must be felt with the heart.” -Helen Keller

My heart aches.  We lost you little one.

You were 8 weeks old and I started to have complications.  We went to the doctor and they did an ultrasound.  We could see you but could not detect a heartbeat.  The doctor said that based off your size you were only 6 weeks and chances are something was not developing right.  She said this is the body’s natural way of handling a pregnancy that was bound to have complications.  I know that God has a plan but I am devastated.

I feel like I am losing a part of myself that I loved very much.  All the excitement and joy that we felt over the last 8 weeks was all because of you.  You brought smiles to our faces and lit up our life.  I want to thank you for everything.  You changed me and I am so grateful for the time I was able to spend with you, even though it ended way too soon.

I now understand how important it is to live life in the moment.  I feel like I will be able to sit back and enjoy the ride more now than ever before.  I am in no hurry to figure out the next step or decide if we want to try again to start a family.  This holiday season I want to enjoy every second I can with my family and friends and thank God for all that I have.

Your Dad and I loved you more than you could ever imagine Little One.  I am grateful that the first thing you will see when you open your little eyes is heaven.  Please watch over us and keep us safe.

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Love,

Mom and Dad

 

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