Hi my little peanut!
No reason for this post really, I just felt like writing. I’ve been all smiles lately. I’m not sure why but I’ve just been happy 🙂 I’ve been really focusing on taking care of myself and taking time to do things that make me feel good. I’ve been eating healthier and exercising more- always a good way to cheer myself up. This past weekend I ran a half marathon all by myself (It was a goal I set for myself a couple of months back and I really stuck it out!). Your Dad woke up early and came out to support me which I thought was really sweet of him. I’ve also been reading a lot, my favorite books right now are a good murder mystery. Maybe just taking a little bit of time to do these things has been enough to change my outlook on life.
I’ve had lots of free time to sit around and think about what life will be like when you decide to show up. I get this amazing feeling when I think about being a mom, it just makes me smile. I’ve even started looking up ideas for your nursery (You’ll learn pretty quickly that I’m quite the planner). I recently took a trip with your Grandma Donisi to Arizona and it sparked this idea to do an Aztec style nursery. Here’s some pics of what I am thinking, I think it’s the cutest nursery idea ever:
I think your Dad is excited for you too. The other night he just gave me a big hug out of nowhere and told me that he couldn’t wait for us to have a baby. After the wedding things really slowed down for us and we’ve had much more time to just back and enjoy each other’s company. I am so in love with your Dad. He is the most amazing man and always knows how to make me smile. Lately we have been putting a lot of focus on planning our future. We like it here in Idaho Falls, but we both know this is not the place for us to live forever. Currently we are trying to find jobs back east and that is because I miss my family so much. We are in a tough situation because my family is on the east coast and your Dad’s family is on the west. This makes it incredibly difficult to find a place to settle down and start a family. I have told myself ever since I left Pennsylvania for graduate school that I wanted to go back home and try living there again. Thankfully your Dad completely understands this and is willing to go with me to try it out for a while. I honestly have no idea where we will end up, but I know that as long as I am with your Dad everything will be okay.
Luckily I am perfectly content just taking one day at time. My hope is that this calm happy feeling I have right now never goes away. I have so much to look forward to in the next couple of months and I’m so grateful for all these amazing moments in my life.